Ideations of A Psychotic Teenager

Otaku

2008-06-06T19:50:07Z

Lollercaust! I'm sorry but it's so true!

Shattered Mirror 2: Picking Up The Pieces (Chapter 1)

2008-04-25T22:33:38Z

Title: Shattered Mirror 2: Picking Up The Pieces
Author: darkyaoiangel
Fandom: Viewfinder
Pairing: Asami x Akihito
Rating: PG-13 for trauma and language
Disclaimer: Akihito and Asami belong to Yamane Ayano. All other characters belong to moi.

Prologue ~ http://darkyaoiangel.livejournal.com/12847.html

The sun rose over the slumbering form of Takaba Akihito. He shifted in his sleep, trying to tuck his hands beneath his pillow. Finding he couldn’t move his hands, he frowned and opened his eyes. Instead of the dimly lit cavern he was used to he found himself in a room with pristine white walls that was comfortably furnished. There was a large mirror on the wall opposite him. Looking up he caught sight up the leather straps restraining him to the bed. Becoming frightened he screamed. Suddenly strange men burst into the room.

“Takaba-san are you alright?”

Akihito glared at them with wild eyes.

“Who the fuck are you? Why is Asami doing this? Why?”

Akihito’s screams turned into violent sobs.

“Why Asami? Why? Why do you hate me now? Why am I trash? Why Why?

A calm voice broke through the sound of his sobbing.

“So you’re finally awake.”

Akihito followed the voice to its origin. A petite old man stood in front of him. He smiled softly at Akihito.

“Hello Takaba-san. My name is Dr. Sano and you’re at Takigawa Hospital.”

The little man came over to Akihito’s left wrist and unstrapped it. He quietly hummed to himself as he walked around to unstrap the right wrist. Moving to Akihito’s feet the man looked up at him.

“You know it took six men to get you into these.”

Akihito looked at the man questioningly as he sat up and rubbed his wrists.

“I’m a psychiatrist here. I understand you’ve been through a terrible ordeal and I’m here to help you work through it.”

Akihito looked around wildly.

“I don’t need a shrink. I’m fine. I just need to leave before he comes. He’s coming, isn’t he?

Dr. Sano pulled up a chair next to Akihito’s bed.

“Who is he?”

Akihito’s eyes filled with tears.

“Asami.”

“You wouldn’t happen to mean Asami Ryuichi would you?”

Akihito shrunk back on the bed.

“Don’t let him hurt me anymore. Please!”

Dr. Sano patted Akihito’s arm soothingly.

“I promise the man who hurt you will never come near you again. Now about Asami-san…”

Akihito whirled on the doctor.

“No! I don’t want to hear his name. Just keep him away. Do you work for him? Are you going to hurt me for him? Please don’t. I’m sorry for whatever I did. I’m sorry he hates me. I’m so sorry. I’m…I…”

Another apology caught in Akihito’s throat as he continued to sob. Curling himself into a ball he rocked himself back and forth. Dr. Sano looked on in pity.

“I promise I’m here to help you and no one will hurt you anymore.”

Akihito unfurled enough to look at the small man. The truth of his words shone in his eyes. Reaching out an arm he took hold of one of Akihito’s hands and smiled at him.
Akihito gave him a tentative smile back.

“You must be hungry. I’ll get you some food.”

Until he’d mentioned it Akihito hadn’t realized he was starving. On cue his stomach growled loudly and he flushed with embarrassment.

“That sounds good.”

Dr. Sano smiled as he got up.

“Ok then I’ll be back soon.”

Giving Akihito a little wave he exited the room. Scooting back in the bed Akihito thought to himself, ‘I think I can trust him.’

I'm The Only One (JinxKatsuki)

2008-03-29T14:51:40Z

Title: I'm The Only One
Author: darkyaoiangel
Fandom: Love Mode
Pairing: Jin x Katsuki
Rating: PG-13 for language
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Shimizu Yuki. I'm just borrowing them.
A/N: My first Love Mode fic for my favorite pairing. It's a songfic set to Melissa Etheridge's "I'm The Only One". This song is sung from the point of view of a girl but I changed it to be from a boy's POV.

Please baby cant you see
My minds a burnin hell
I got razors a rippin and tearin and strippin
My heart apart as well

They’d gotten into a fight again. They fought a lot but that was the nature of their relationship. This time it had ended different though. Instead of the long hours of make-up sex Katsuki had stormed off. How could anyone blame him? When you find out the long lost love of your sorta-but-not-really boyfriend has come to town and has requested to see your sorta-but-not-really boyfriend you have the right to get angry.

‘I thought we had moved past him’

Katsuki hadn’t broached the subject of Jin’s past with him but when Jin had semi-retired, now only training new hosts, and had Katsuki move in with him he’d taken that as a sign.

Tonight you told me
That you ache for something new
And some other man is lookin’ like something
That might be good for you

But when the owner had given Jin the news, Jin accepted with no apparent thoughts to Katsuki at all.

Go on and hold him till the screaming is gone
Go on believe him when he tells you
Nothings wrong
But I’m the only one
Who’ll walk across the fire for you
I’m the only one
Who’ll drown in my desire for you
Its only fear that makes you run
The demons that you’re hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I’m the only one

Why couldn’t Jin see? His prince was going to leave him again? Were they going to do the long distance thing? Where did this leave Katsuki?

He needed a drink. Going to his usual haunt he ran into Amagai-senpai.

“Hey Katsuki I just heard. I’m sorry man.”

“Fuck Jin. I’m getting shit faced.”

“Oh boy.”

A few hours later Katsuki sniffled into his 6th drink.

“I hate him. He’s an asshole. Why do I put up with him?”

“I don’t know. Why don’t you stop drinking?”

Katsuki glared at Amagai through his long bangs.

“No way. I’m just getting started. Touma!”

Touma came over and looked at Katsuki.

“I think you’ve had enough.”

“Man, fuck all you guys. I’m going home.”

Please baby cant you see
I’m trying to explain
I’ve been here before and I’m locking the door
And I’m not going back again
His eyes and arms and skin wont make
It go away
You’ll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrow
That holds you down today

Staggering out the bar Katsuki headed back towards the B&B. When he opened the door to his and Jin’s room the sight that greeted him was unexpected.

Jin.

Go on and hold him till the screaming is gone
Go on believe him when he tells you
Nothings wrong

“What are you doing here?”

Jin looked at him.

“I live here.”

Katsuki glared.

“Done fucking your prince?”

Jin raised his eyebrows.

“What makes you think we had sex?”

Katsuki stopped short.

“You didn’t?”

“For your information, no. We talked.”

“Talked? You?”

“Would you rather we had sex?”

“No! No…I’m just not sure I believe you.”

Jin smirked at him and came to stand close in front of him. Very close. Katsuki felt warm breath tickle his ear.

"Would you like me to prove it?”

Wanting to melt into Jin, Katsuki instead pushed him away.

“Why?”

“Why what?”

“Why didn’t you have sex?”

Sighing Jin raked a hand through his hair.

“Because…”

“Bacause what?”

“Because he has someone he loves.”

“Oh so that’s it. The prince has someone else. So of course he wouldn’t be interested. And here I though you could charm the pants off of anyone.”

“Just about.”

Katsuki laughed harshly, then looked at Jin sadly.

“You’re such a bastard.”

“Aren’t I though?”

Katsuki was tired. He sighed.

“I’m staying at a friend’s place tonight. I’ll see you later.”

Turning he walked to the door and opened it. At least he triend to open it. He rattled the knob again. Stil the door wouldn’t budge. Looking up he saw a hand holding the door closed. Jin’s hand. Whirling around he looked at Jin in surprise.

“Maybe that wasn’t the only reason nothing happened. Maybe I wasn’t interested.”

“You? Not interested in sex?”

Jin sighed.

“Maybe I’m interested in sex. Just not with him.”

Moving closer he pressed Katsuki into the door. Katsuki could feel that “interest” pushing into his stomach.

But I’m the only one
Who’ll walk across the fire for you
I’m the only one
Who’ll drown in my desire for you
It’s only fear that makes you run
The demons that you’re hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I’m the only one

Katsuki’s voice came out as a squeek.

“Really?”

“Maybe.”

Katsuki sighed.

“You won’t give me an inch, will you?”

Sighing he wrapped his arms around Jin’s neck.

“You know I’m the only one who’ll love you this much.”

His answer was a smirk before Jin closed the gap between their lips.

Shattered Mirror 2: Picking Up The Pieces (Prologue)

2008-03-27T23:14:05Z

Title: Shattered Mirror 2: Picking Up The Pieces
Author: darkyaoiangel
Fandom: Viewfinder
Pairing: Asami x Akihito
Rating: PG-13 for trauma and language
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Yamane Ayano. If they belonged to me Asami and Akihito would have been back together already.
A/N: Sorry it's so short. I promise the next chapter will be much longer. But I can't
find the notebook I wrote the story in. So I'm writing it all over from scratch.

Red lights lit the sky and the scream of sirens filled the air. Below an ambulance transported Takaba Akihito to Takigawa Hospital. A sleek black limousine followed closely behind it.

~~

“Asami-san?”

Asami Ryuichi lifted his golden eyes to see a man in a surgeon’s uniform standing before him. Asami rose quickly from his seat.

“How is he?”

“Physically Takaba-san will be fine. He has a few broken ribs, various lacerations that need stitching, and a torn rectum. He was also severely dehydrated. Good news is he’ll be good as new in a few months.”

“And the bad news?”

“Mentally he’s a wreck. It took 6 orderlies to hold him down just so we could sedate him.”

Asami sighed heavily.

“I’m just a surgeon. This boy needs serious psychiatric care.”

Asami nodded, barely listening to what the man was saying anymore. Akihito would be ok…at least physically. But his boy was strong. He’d make it through all this. Asami repeated this over and over in his mind.

“I’ll get him the best help possible.”

I'm Back!

2008-03-04T15:45:11Z

I'm back! I got a lot of writing done when I was in the hospital. Truth is I might be going back into the hospital in another week. We'll see. I have a lot of reading to catch up on and after that I'll start posting.

First release: Chapter 1 of Shattered Mirror's sequel.

Going Crazy

2007-12-19T08:58:44Z

Yo I'm going back into "the 'hab". I'm a bi-polorized mess, and I need some relaxin' and intensive therapy so I don't go batshit crazy. I'll be there for about a month. But at least I'll get a lot of writing done while I'm there.

Speaking of fics...

FICS UNDER CONSTRUCTION
1) Unnamed Viewfinder - Asami loses his memory fic
2) Unnamed Viewfinder - Asami has nightmares fic.
3) Unnamed Viewfinder - Smutty sick Takaba fic.
4) Unnamed Love Mode - Jin x Katsuki. Songfic.
5) Unnamed Love Mode - Jin x Katsuki. Katsuki meets his biggest idol. Could Jin possibly be jealous?
6) Unnamed Saiyuki - 39. Songfic.

7) Big Boys Don't Cry...They Get Even - AU Viewfinder Fic. This may turn into a SasuNaru fic.

8)VF - Shattered Mirror's Sequel: Picking Up The Pieces.

9)VF - You Can Take Your Shoes Off. Fluffy A/A fic.

10) VF - Seven Deadly Sins fic

11) Songfic. Undecided fandom.

12) Gravitation - Songfic. Y/S

13) 1sentence LJ community challenges for:
Viewfinder
Love Mode
SasuNaru
Gravitation

Yes I am in the process of writing/drafting all of these fics. Why do I take so much on???? Because I'm an idiot.

Christmas Quizzes!

2007-12-13T20:29:00Z

These were all done by mtarashidango
I snagged them.

VF Christmas Quiz '07

Akihito - You've been really goodYou've been so good this year! You get Akihito! He's sweet, he's fun and oh so huggable :) ...and best of all he's a Seme God magnet!! Just keep him close by, and sooner or later you'll have them all within your grasp! Mwahahahahahaha~!! *Includes Months Supply of Pocky*
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Your Dream VF Christmas date

Your dream date for Christmas is... TAKABA...come with an empty stomach and a craving for sweets because this bundle of energy is on a hunt after all, it's Christmas...and that means lots of delectable desserts to devour. All the better because you'll need all the hyperactive energy to keep up with all the fun this guy has planned!
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Yep I'm a total Takaba-luvr/Takaba himself...

12 Days Of Christmas

2007-11-30T09:58:48Z

Nabbed from nightygal.

Congrats if you're part of my 12 Days Of Christmas!

On the twelfth day of Christmas, darkyaoiangel sent to me...

Twelve salmonmes drumming

Eleven wash_when_dirtys piping

Ten premerseahshikos a-leaping

Nine miershyks dancing

Eight ingenius_incs a-milking

Seven serena_daragons a-swimming

Six ninkisakkas a-laying

Five de-e-e-esertrivers

Four punkwolfinprints

Three getbackers

Two icons

...and an asami in a demon diary.

Hehehe

2007-11-16T02:19:25Z

*Dies* Borrowed from kispexi2

Only Darkyaoiangel Can Prevent Forest Fires.

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darkyaoiangel @ 2007-11-04T01:21:00

2007-11-04T05:22:47Z

Well I for one am satisfied. Over at TokyoPop's Shoujo Your Mojo poll the final round was Sanzo from Saiyuki vs Souji from Peacemaker.

And...

Sanzo skr8 pwnd Souji's peacemaking ass. Go Sanzo!

Names

2007-11-02T07:04:09Z

Robbed from kispexi2

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Misty Izuzu (ooo lookie I'm Japanese)

2. GANGSTA NAME: (favorite ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Vanilla Oatmeal Raisin (sounds yummy)

3. “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name):
A Fos

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Koala

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Colleen Orlando

6. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Fosal (Fossil???)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, first tool that comes to mind, put “The” at the beginning)
The Red Hammer (Sounds like a cocktail...)

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
William Sidney

9. STRIPPER NAME: (favorite candy, the name of your favorite perfume/cologne)
Reese Dolce & Gabbana

10. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names )
Hope Llwellyn

11. PORN STAR NAME: (first pet & first street you lived on)
Misty Plumbego

Oh yeah!

2007-10-31T18:51:49Z

Woo hoo! 47 Members and 62 watching at naruto_secrets. I'm so proud of my baby! Thanks to everyone who's joined!

Bars, Confessions, and A Whole Lot Of Maybes (Viewfinder Ficlet)

2007-10-30T06:02:02Z

Title: Bars, Confessions, and A Whole Lot Of Maybes
Author: darkyaoiangel
Fandom: Viewfinder
Pairing: Asami x Akihito
Rating: PG-13/R for language and a smidge of violence
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Yamane Ayano. If they belonged to me Asami and Akihito would have been back together already.
A/N: Hmmm Asami might be a little OOC, not to much though. Also this ficlet has a lot of disjointed sentences, but what do you expect. Aki's smashed in it. Drunk Aki. So fun.

They’d gotten into a fight. So he’d run away. He always ran when they fought. If he ran he wouldn’t be giving Asami the chance to end everything. Because he’d hate that. He could admit that to himself now, even if he’d never admit it to Asami. The smug bastard would probably laugh to hear such a thing.

So Akihito ran. He ran right into a bar. Alcohol. That’s what he needed. So he got plastered. Hard liquor. It’s a great thing. Screw beer. He wanted the good stuff. The stuff that would make him forget after a few sips. The bartender was eyeing him funny. Perv. Probably only wanted to get in his pants…like Asami. Shit. He’d thought about Asami. No, not Asami. It’s HIM now. He-who-shall-not-be-named. He-who-shall-not-be-named, hahaha. Akihito liked that one. The bartender was still looking at him. Maybe he didn’t want his body. Maybe he wanted his liquor! Akihito scowled at the bartender.
‘Tough shit buddy I ain’t sharing!’
Putting a protective arm around his glass he stood up quickly. Whoa. Too quickly. He splashed his drink all over the guy next to him. The big scary guy. The man yelled ‘punk’ and stood up in a rage. Make that HUMONGOUS scary guy. The guy swung. Akihito ducked. But he was drunk, and didn’t duck very well.

Pain coursed through his jaw. His lip split. He tasted blood. Metallic and warm. Staggering back he threw his glass at the giant’s head. David versus Goliath. For good measure he threw his neighbor’s glass at the man too. They both missed. Figures. The behemoth grabbed him by the shirt and lifted him up. Feet dangling a foot above the ground, the photographer was scared. Thrown to the ground he landed in the pile of broken glass on the ground. Shards of glass and drops of whiskey. Painful combination. The shards were now imbedded deep in his hands and arms. He’d probably need stitches. Fuck.

His assailant loomed over him, ready to strike. Until someone caught his shoulder.
‘Hey he looks familiar.’
Another giant. Blond hair. The blond man delivers a punch to the other’s stomach. It knocks him out. A voice speaks.

“Take him outside. You know what to do.”

Akihito would know that voice anywhere. He looks around and suddenly he’s there. Asami. No. It’s he-who-shall-not-be-named. Akihito laughs. That really is a good one. He-who-shall-not-be-named kneels in front of him. Akihito laughs harder and harder. It sounds a little hysterical. He chokes on a laugh and it transforms itself into a sob. Tear-filled brown eyes lift a little to meet golden ones.

“Bet you’re thinking about how much of a nightmare I am.”
“That’s right.”

Akihito feels his heart crack. Asami sighs.

“You’re a nightmare, a pain in the ass, and a fucking brat.”

Not cracked anymore. Broken. Shattered.
Asami smiles. It’s small and quick. But it was real. It was there. And it confuses Akihito.

“But…”
“But what?”

That’s funny. But what. Butt what. What butt? He laughs at it but his laughs still sound like sobs.

“But you are MY nightmare, MY pain in the ass, and MY fucking brat.”

Akihito’s heart starts to build itself anew. Not that he’d let Asami know that. He leans forward a little.

“I don't belong to you.”

Same line. Different reaction. Another smile from Asami, a real one. So many smiles. It’s nice, but it’s freaking Akihito out.

“Yes you do and you always will.”

He opens his mouth to protest. The older man puts a hand over it.

“And no amount of protesting from you is going to change that.”

The younger man just shakes his head. Asami leans in close. So close that only Akihito can hear what is said next.

“But that’s ok. Because maybe I belong to you too. Not all of me, but definitely a piece. Now let’s get those arms looked at. Oh and when we’re in the car, try not to bleed on the leather.”

Akihito is speechless. A first. He can’t seem to move his legs. So Asami picks him up and cradles him in his arms- princess style. And maybe the way Asami holds him is just a little more tender than usual. Akihito likes it. Not that he’d ever tell he-who-shall-not-be-named. No. Asami. And maybe one day he will tell him. Because Akihito’s tired of running. And now, maybe he doesn’t have to anymore.

Viewfinder and The Mother

2007-10-29T14:11:38Z

Ok so my mom saw this icon I made

She thought it was really pretty. So now she wants me to make a shirt for her with it on it. I'm bipolar so she thinks it's very symbolic of myself.

Now my mother would flip her shit if she knew I was into yaoi. She's devout in her religion. She's got nothing against gay people and she does have gay acquintences, but she still does believe it is a sin. So she would kill me if she knew I was first of all into porn but gay porn on top of it.

Not really sure what to do here...

If she ever found out what the pic was from, darkyaoiangel really will be with the angels...or demons...hehehe...

On the plus side my mom thinks Yamane-sensei's art is beautiful. She thinks Aki is very lovely.

Naruto Secrets

2007-10-28T08:21:16Z

As if I have no life already, I have to go and become a Mod. ~sighs~ I just couldn't help myself...

If you like Naruto, look no further!

Every character's got a secret! Come one, come all to naruto_secrets. A PostSecrets-like Naruto Community!

All pairings are allowed, but yaoi pairings are preferred!

I think my own community hates me though. It's not letting me do an lj-cut. I have to use the rich text editor. Anyone know if there's any reason for that?

darkyaoiangel @ 2007-10-27T21:30:00

2007-10-28T01:38:59Z

Ok so I've been following this poll http://www.tokyopop.com/ShojoYourMojo/tp_article/891637.html

First off to gripe at the world I wanna know how the mutherf**k not only Alzeid, but Soubi as well lost to this Souji dude. Who the fuck's Souji???? Sorry to Peacemaker fans, but I've never watched. There is no justice in this world...

And how the HE-double hockey sticks did Shuichi lose to Matt from DramaCon. I mean I like DramaCon and everything but Shu losing to Matt?! Like I said no justice...

Well maybe there's a little, after all Sanzo made it to the finals. That I am thankful for. I found it a little creepy that he was paired against Yuki from Gravi. I mean for some reason those 2 always struck me as kinda similar, especially in their relationships with their counterparts (i.e. Shuichi and Goku). Ok so technically Sanzo and Goku aren't together, but whatever. In my mind they are.

Nothing Like...

2007-10-27T05:41:08Z

So I stayed up all last night and into the morning making icons and reading yaoi. Although I stay up all night most days reading scans and fanfics...I'm part vampire. Anyways after saying goodbye to my mom as she headed off to work I drove over to Burger King ordered myself some breakfast + a Hershey sundae pie (great breakfast food), went home, and settled down to watch my new Sensitive Pornograph dvd. I'd been waiting for the right moment to finally open the shiny wrapped package. Today was the day.

There's nothing like porn in the morning...on plasma. Fufufu.

PS - Out of curiousity I was wondering if yamane ayano had ever been to a con in the US, and surfing I saw that she was at Yaoi-Con in 2004. WHY OH WHY WASN'T I A YAOI FAN IN 2004????? not that i'd have been able to go seeing as i would've been underage...but still...

darkyaoiangel @ 2007-10-26T06:30:00

2007-10-26T10:31:09Z

Some more icons. And a BIG spank you to ego_elite without whom I would never know how to make animated icons.

[10] Viewfinder
[1] SasuNaru
[4] Gravitation
[1] Fruits Basket
[1] Demon Diary
[1] DNAngel

Resources are listed in my profile.
Comment & Credit please!

If someone could tell me who did the colorization for the Akihito Help Me icon that'd be great.

RESOURCES

2007-10-26T10:02:40Z

Websites:
http://www.stardust-designs.com

Brushes and Textures On Livejournal:
amethystia100
queen_nothin
songstressicons
winter_kismet

The Shirt

2007-10-26T02:15:43Z

My first attempt at making shirts. I accidentally made the image on the shirt crooked but instead of chucking the shirt I decided to keep it and call it artistic.

Forgive for crappy quality but I just took a polaroid.

Wow that pic sucks...
Here's the image that's on the shirt.

HELP ME!

2007-10-24T10:51:20Z

Anyone know how to make animated icons?

Now That You Got It

2007-10-11T08:44:23Z

I am freaking obsessed with this song...lord help me. But I can't help it Gwen's a girl after my own heart. Harajuku girls and Damien Marley? For an anime-loving half Jamaican this video is God...well not really, but you get what I mean.

Bored, PaintShop, and Anime

2007-10-02T02:43:53Z

Been frustrated lately. Doing my 'volunteer' work is boring. But I ordered Corel's Paint Shop Pro from Office Depot and it arrives in the mail tomorrow. Finally I can go back to making icons and wallpapers. I bought the next dvd of the Ghost Stories anime from Amazon.com, it should arrive soon. Fucking hilarious anime, I recommend it to anyone looking for a good laugh. With my next paycheck I'm buying Sensitive Pornograph, I want it sooooooo bad. Well I'm really bored now, I'm going to go watch some Kodocha...

~Angel Out.

A Day In The Life Of Aki-chan! (Omake)

2007-09-26T03:50:09Z

Forgive me.

Part 1 ~ http://darkyaoiangel.livejournal.com/4571.html

Part 2 ~ http://darkyaoiangel.livejournal.com/6665.html

^^Click On Pic^^

A Day In The Life Of Aki-chan! (Part 2)

2007-09-25T04:30:46Z

Yeah I know this took me forever to post. I've actually had it done for quite a while, but it was in my art portfolio at school, and I had forgotten about it. Eeep! On to crack-art!

Clicky on piccy to see better!